I Am Rob Gordon
It came from this afternoon. It was because I had a sudden and out of nowhere desire to watch Grosse Point Blank, the video store didn’t have it.
Seven years ago someone, it was actually three people, told me I was Rob Gordon. At first I thought this was a compliment. I mean I love music, and at the time atleast, I was really pretty into it. I was the guy people would ask about music, for some reason my opinion seemed to have some impact on some people. It was bizarre. I thought being Rob Gordon was a compliment.
Then I saw who Rob Gordon was, instantly I was depressed. I saw only the crippled sad bastard. I hated those three friends who told me that. I was insulted that they saw me as this pathetic man.
For the longest time I thought I wanted Laura back. For the longest time I wanted to ask Charlie what was wrong with me. She even called today, as out of nowhere as the desire to watch Grosse Point Blank. We had a pretty good conversation, but as we talked I felt the need to ask her that question fade away. I hung up the phone and was genuinely happy she’d called. This girl who walked out on me years ago, probably atleast number 2 on the top 5 list I’ll never verbalize.
Tonight I saw Rob Gordon for someone else. I am Rob Gordon, I’m fine with that. And I laughed in a way I haven’t in a really long time. I’ve always said that I’m Eric, or J.D., or a million other people. But I really am Rob Gordon, It was amazing.
Then again, it is four in the morning and I could just be really tired.
