I’ve kinda been off lately.  I’ve had concentration problems.  I guess I’ve always had concentration problems, but lately they’ve been far worse.  There are certain things that I have to get done. There are the things that I want to get done.  There are the things that I’m contractually obligated to get done.  I have zero motivation.  I’ve discovered that I just don’t care.  I feel like I’ve grown so comfortable in my rut that I can’t get out.  I constantly have an overwhelming sense of claustrophobia.  I feel like I’m suffocating.  I can’t move.  My skin crawls.

Everybody tells me I need a vacation.  Everybody says that I need to take a couple weeks to myself.

I need a couple of years to myself.  I need something new.  Something scary.  Something alien.  I need a hard reboot.  I need something that forces me out of my head.  Something that forces me out of my habits.

Which is why I’ve decided that I want to move, I doubt I ever will.  I doubt I will for some pathetic sense of obligation.  Which might as well be my pathetic way of saying that I’m far too big of a chicken shit to escape from my life, as sad as it makes me.

That’s all I got…

Best.
Gum.
Ever.

Personally I don’t see the point of a Sex and the City movie, but I’m sure some people can’t see the point of not one but two X-Files movies… Those people are stupid, but I guess I can’t hold that against them.

Before anyone asks, I’ve not watched it. I will admit that someday I will. Not because I care. Not because I want to see what the big deal is, I’ve seen the show… There is no big deal, it’s just stupid.

No, I’ll eventually watch it because, even after all the bullshit, I still love and support Ellen… That and I’d love to lean over to some random stranger and say, “I totally nailed her.”

1. It’s fucking hot.
   • Seriously.
2. I’m a fucking vulgar son of a bitch.
   • I don’t necessarily see this as being a bad thing, just stating it as fact.
3. Having two sets of earphones hooked up to two different audio sources is fucking confusing.
   • Because it never fails, I’ll always put the wrong pair in my ears…
4. I just don’t know that I care anymore.
   • Seriously.
5. I’m pretty sure that I don’t care what you think.
   • Not so much a specific you, just you.
6. The new Executive ADA on Law & Order is fucking irritating.
   • I do think it’s cool that McCoy is the D.A. now, and Connie is really hot…
7. I’m not sure how I feel about Munch being the C.O. on SVU.
   • He is probably my favorite detective on SVU, but I really Cragen

Okay, so maybe I’m only kinda damn sure about some of this shits, but whatever…  Fuck it, I’m out bitches!

Seriously, the saddest I’ve ever been.